DESPERATELY TRYING (SWING MIX)

Never feels at home when he's with me
That is what he told me when he left me
Leaving me desperately trying to understand

Desperately trying to find a home for him to move to
Desperately trying to find a place for us to stay
Said he never really got through to me
That I never opened up emotionally

Guess I kind of lost my trust on the way
Since he's gone I'm sinking
Sinking deeper into who I really am
Now I'm brave enough to show what's inside
But it's too late

Said he never loved me
That he always stopped for his feelings to grow
And I went on hoping, hoping for things to change
Since he is gone I keep on finding out
All these little things about him
Realizing that she was always there with us

Looking back I have to admit that
Things went wrong long ago
So please take the sorrow you gave
And leave
I'm desperately trying to cleanse myself of all this lies
So scared that I'm gonna love you 'til the day I die