IT HURTS UNTIL IT DOESN'T

I felt alive for a little while
But when I died
I had the time to notice
I was crushed by the weight of my own ego
But never honest enough to say it

I felt your love for a little while
But never had the guts
To give myself up
I said that I could be just what you wanted
As if I could ever keep a promise
As if I could ever keep a promise

You have eyes in every room
But you won't see me, you won't see me
You won't see me walk away
Once I was
More than just a song to play
On your haunted tape
I don't want to be away

Could have sworn
I heard you laughing in the doorway
I don't like myself when I'm awake

I don't like myself
When I'm awake